insecurities

today has not been a productive day.  now i don't know if i've titled this the right way, but one of the things i dislike about myself the most is that i can be lazy. i guess that's not something i'm insecure more that i just don't like it about myself. i don't know though. 

i could go on and on about how crappy i feel and how if i move i feel as though i am going to throw up. but still, there are many things i could have done like write in my blog :), i have at least two letters that i need to be writing, actually three.  i need to write a cover letter for my job application, i need to write a letter to a friend, i've composed it in my head several times and have yet to get in down on paper. i have to write a letter to my grandpa telling him about selling my condo and looking to buy a new house and to see if he'd help me do so. i'm really scared to write that letter. i've been stressed out all week about my condo not selling, me not getting a job and basically once again be stuck in life not doing the things i really want. 

okay so i think i really am going to throw up now, i've been sitting up too long apparently so i'm gonna go, but at least i wrote in my blog. :)